hell

specially dt suz <3

tbh my love life isnt rich at all in the short 17 years of living but here we go

of course i've had a few share of crushes in elementary school, only two which were reciprocated but its elementary of course nothing happened from them other than my fourth grade crush giving me a birthday gift :P

in sixth grade this guy liked me and somehow everyone found out about it and started shipping me with im which was so annoying LMFAO and i was so mean to him because of it, but we were still friends right.

FLASH FORWARD TO EIGHTH GRADE i started having a crush on the same mf. ok, like. not really a crush but if he said he liked me then i would be happy about it yk. lets call him A lolll . so A right we would text a lot but not really talk irl too much. this is middle school okay we're stupid . but he would write me cards and i would write him cards too. like birthday cards and christmas cards and stuff it was cute tbh i still have them in my drawer bc i keep every gift anyone gives to me,, but anyways. like he said he didn't like me anymore but he would call me pet names and shit.. like . babe and bub. and had me all confused and stuff. but he would tell me about his crush on another girl and i would give him advice LMAO i am such a good friend. anyways we are still friends we talk once in a while but nothing ever came out of it. we were like neighbors almost too before I moved like he lived three houses down it was kinda cute. when i was moving and was going to go to another hs, he wrote me a card to say gbye to me :<


okay lets go to highschool uhm . my first three crushes in highschool are honestly embarrassing and im going to gloss over them real quick bc this is when i moved schools and shit so i liked the first guy who was decently cute but he turned out to be a bitch so i got over him quick and then went for this guy who i called bio boy right. ok. sooo this one lasted for a while cause he was nice and would text me and shit and it wasnt badd but i always had a feeling he liked this other girl who was his friend right and i was right hes dating her now :P no hard feelings i dont like him anymore .

then i got really bored right so i was like this is time for another crush and i ended up latching onto my viola section leader because he was like the only other guy i talked to. this crush felt very comphet i will say because i literally looked around and chose him to crush onto im not even kidding. but yea this was fruitless because hes just really nice to everyone LMAO like he did not treat me any special. and i ended up losing feelings for him after i started liking someone else :P

^ glossed over that one but anyways i thought this one guy in my calc class was kind of cute . like there was nothing really cute about him it was jsut. some vibe. yk. and i didnt really likee him like i just ended up thinking he was cute. and i would go into calc tutoring before lunch and he was usually there and we would do problems on the board together and then talk a little when we were walking to our next classes! and i was like oh hes actually really nice and listens rlly well i just know im going to end up liking this mf. (spoiler alert, i did. i am.)
this crush is current btw. so like on going rn. hes on my twt . hes like everywhere. anyways. i never really paid too much attention to him until when i was added into this discord server with him and like his friend group + other people for homework and we hardly talked of course but he ended up following my spotify cause its linked on my profile right. and i would see that he was listening to my playlists! and this made me like. really curious. cause again we never talked too much or anything but i was like huh does he kind of like me or what.

mm i dont really know how we became really close. like. we would walk out of class together sometimes because we had the same friend group right and it was awkward as hell at first because i didnt know what to say to him :P but we end up like playing genshin together with two other guys right and during one of these times.

i mentioned watching snowdrop the kdrama to him and then he asked me the name in the dc server and this is how i end up watching a kdrama with him and his friends LOL kinda fun

like the day before i was thinking i really wish there was something in my hair or smth and someone would pick it out for me. and then the day after i thought this, it actually happens and calc boy picks it out for me (this had me in shambles i was so lajflj over this.) and yk we would play genshin but we ended up moving on from this. then i start waving to him everytime i passed him from fifth period to sixth !

so, im not too sure how we progress from just friends to like. mutual crushing. right like we walk out of calc together every day and mmm i started playing wordscapes yk this word game. and he ended up following me and joining my friends clan for it and we would play together. this is where things get a bit more close i think. like once he sat beside me and we were sitting p close to play together right and i could hear my friend in the back call my other friend and point to us it was so obvious TT LMFAO . and my profile picture in wordscapes were the ocean waves right because i was like oh i like water and its kinda cute ok and calc boy (i keep accidentally typing his name oh my god) made his pfp the moon. which was a rlly. good coincidence . now that i think about it. i think we had like our suspicions that we liked each other and this point...

i once took a love language quiz next to him like he was sitting next to me and watched me choose my choices LMFAO idk how much more obvious i could get . i also taught him how to play wordle like he copies my every move actually

anyways at some point he started following my twitter and stuff whatever. on discord right, he made his status something about the moon (which was a reference to something i liked on twt) and i was like haha the moon ill make my bio ocean waves as a reference to our wordscapes pfp. then he made his bio about the tides. and i was like .. OH MY GOD. yk like oh its kinda. confirmed. lollll
and i guess he told his friends about liking me or something because once while i was playing wordscapes, he pulled out his too and his friend asked him oh you play that too? and his other friend went "i wonder why.. oh-". LMFAO i purposely ignored him.

god im reading my journal where i write about what happens to me daily right and holy shit my mood is so affected by how much he talks to me. LMFAO. and then i made my bio this poem about the moon and sea right, cause thast him, the moon, and im the sea and he made his bio a line from it it was so cute

he bought me a popcorn gram :) for three dollars it was cute and then on twt he called me cute. like fjlajflajf he had me reeling i was in tears
god ok like theres not much to say anymore but that we know we like each other but we havent done anything about it but flirt with each other LMFAO <33 still a work in progress

hey... Yet another app / website for me to spill my thoughts for no reason.
I like to talk a lot, even if half of the time I don’t make a lot of sense.

So yeah, my name’s Lisa. I was born on the March 8th of ‘04 making me 17. This also makes me a Pisces. looks away
I can speak English, Cantonese, and some Chinese but definitely not on a fluent level. However, the only language I can pretty much write in is English. (so sad)

My interests consist of mainly K-pop right now just because P1harmony and Enhypen suddenly were introduced to me and then I suddenly fell back into the kpop rabbit hole. I was almost out of it too... I also enjoy kdramas and shows, other music, books, webtoons, but its all too much to list. My favs are in my carrd tho <3

I am not quite sure how to work this website. At all. Like I’m playing around with all the controls and hoping for the best rn. Not sure if its going well.

I mean I made an account because of my twt oomfs so if you’re seeing this hey <3

Maybe you’ll see some unhinged thoughts on here, who knows.